as he smoked his last cigarette

lost and insecure, you found me, you found me.

hhhhhhmmm.. odd days. Kindaaa feeling, sad. all the time like :(, feeling like this, its baaad. Josh makes me feel better thoee, alot of the time. but i'm worried, worried about fimiyo.

fimiyo is joshs mate, best mate maybee i dont really know. he hates me, like actually wants me to die. he slaps me alot and bashes me about and shit. and its kindaa weird, josh didnt used to do anythin, which was in a way, a better situation, 'cause thenn at least i knew. but now hes like "i'll punch him if you want" i havee a feeling dan (big brother) mightvee sed sumthin to him about it, gay.

and he says stuff to, worse than the otherr guys. hes like "shlaaag, get over here", "shut up you tramp", "oi retard".. wateverr... just gotta do nuuuthin XD, i'll be finee

to ten million fireflies

josh grabbed my waist from behind today and pulled me close, and then he looked like he was gunna say something, you know "josh", but he just smiled at me - and even thoee we're in this MAD (Mayhem. And. Destruction) classroom everythinn just kindaa.. fell into place.

I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes

this is how you remind me

ᵀᴴᴱ ᴼᴿᴵᴳᴵᴻᴬᴸ Daniel

i got sooo much crap today xD

5:29pmMe

tell me

5:31pmᵀᴴᴱ ᴼᴿᴵᴳᴵᴻᴬᴸ Daniel

Well everyone kept going to me "Why did you go to town Darcy"etc

5:32pmMe

and wat you say?

you shouldvee done a "shes a diiirty bitch"

:L

5:32pmᵀᴴᴱ ᴼᴿᴵᴳᴵᴻᴬᴸ Daniel

No i said Cus i wanted to

5:33pmMe

wel tht saved you :L

wat they say?

5:33pmᵀᴴᴱ ᴼᴿᴵᴳᴵᴻᴬᴸ Daniel

and they said "shes still a slag" etc

5:34pmMe

ohh okay :/

wel, thats encouraging

scream "are we having fun yet?"

just stupid

okay, so, i was in town with dan yesterdayy, and it was awesome and everything, we were havinn fun, and THEN we saw like, eibhlin(HATES me) and freya and isabel, lily, bella, will and (JOY) gio. and thenn last night everyone was like hating on dan aboutt it, just cas we're mates.
now see, this has confused me. josh didnt have a problem with it, we're best mates and totally NOT in that place, have been always - yehh his mates might not like me but BIG DEAL, whats the difference between me goin into town with lottie and me goin into town with dan? its not like it was a date, its not like we were flirting. ellie+beckky dont get it either, and i am just SO CONFUSED!
i gotta say thouu, news travells fast around here. practically half the year know now- great. as if i'm not labelled a shlllaaaag enough allready. ugh. UGHH. its so stupid!

someday, somehow, i'm gunna make it alright, just not right now

i'm hunting for a bus fare

was staying at the mullanys last week :) theyre all fairly awesome - they got likee everyone round on saturdayy, got some spazzy pictures of us in our pyjamass LOL :D


then i was talking to dan all night last night :) it was some good stuff, :L town today- got to get the bus in a minutee. tom - (FITT) havvin a chat with him :D, josh is bein non-romantic as usual LOL, meh i still love him to bits :-). nothin else realy on :S, thouu mr.c's got addicted to Nothin On You - B.o.B ft Bruno Mars. meeeh i heard it aaaaaaaaaages ago thoe, such a sweet song :)) jim keeps singing it randomly in class, :L everyones gettin ready to kill him.

anybody else just love it?

beautiful girls, all over the world.

there was snow. white snow

coldplay

i'm thinking about dan now, watching him get pulled out of the car... blood everywhere, stabbed in the back. fuckk i remeber how terrified i was. i couldnt even belive it was happening... dan, my dan. right here in front of me - stabbed, stabbed.

fuckk i'd forgotten. gee thanks

-you know you love me

-i know i do

runnin' in circles, chasing our tails, coming back as we are

chiddy bang

some days you just gotta be free.

i was in hysterics todayy :D, mizz saw this random gingee yr.7, and was screaming "OMG a ginger! i fall in love with gingers, no seriously, can i have a hug?!" and so she goes runnin up to this poor dude who looked just bloody terrified, ahhh it was funny mate. i half expected him to run off screaming ;)

i got a lecturee the otherr day from thomAS, about love. LOL, of all things? he started yelling at me, 'cause apparently you should never date a guy youreee not in love with. personally i find this bloody ridiculous, but youu know, each to thier own.

i thoughtt i might fukking hit gio the other day. dirty lieing dickhead. goes around telling everyonee i got off with him, then dumps bella 'cause he dont want anyy of the piss-take that he does to me (!!!) from his lil mateees. UGH, i told her he'll want her backk like in a day, 'cause he just messes you around like that, but she's strongerr then me, if some boy treats her like shit, she dontt give him a second chance. hell i wish i could be like thatt. arghh, if he wernt my brothers best mate...

oh i once was a kid all i had was a dream.

chipmunk ft.esme denters

shall i tell you whatt happened today? allright, so you know how theres this guy willl? well theres this guy will- thinks
hes like this proper badman, he only lives like a minute from school hell. Anywayyyy, he deciced the otherr day he's gunna rape me (:/ in knowww) and today as i'm walking past he grabbs me and says "lets do our formation, you in the middle, adain on the wall, and i'll be front you like." I just looked at him like WTF, and adain looked bloody scared, dontt think he realised quite watt wills like, ahhh wel. still love him, fukking party animal ledgee :D.

ohh and also like, thiss boy matts been messing around with my darlinn nancyyyyy. and this uglyy tart megan practically threw herselff on him today. nancy can do better but she looked heartbroken like hell. we said go bash her in, but thenn guess itd show she still loves him. dirtyy noooob (him ;]).

catherinee decided she wer gunna thump me in todayy... hell i still dunno why, i'm probably the onlyy person in the year not scared of her. pahh she never does nothin'. shes all air ;)
jim (FITTFITTFITT) gave me a lecture on his "sexting" todayy LOLL, hell its just him texting his girl, she gorgeous.


well theres your first insight into my lifee, dontt make a good impression hey? ahhh wel, please keep reading :D

NEVER KNEW HOW MUCH I MISSED YOU, UNTIL YOU WERE GONE.