i think about all the shit we've gone through,

and i remind myself we're together in this, me and you,

and no matter how much it hurts i know at the end of the day,

how much it would kill me inside,

i'll give up everything for you,

because its you and me against the world.

how scary is that shit?

the script

n'awww :-)

yesterday i was abandoned in town :(, ellie made me miss my bus and i couldnt get another until 7ishh. so i was alone on queen st. (not a good place to be alone wen its gettin late) and josh just appears on his bike. so i was like OMG and he said he wasnt gunna let me hang around wen its gettin dark on my own, and that he wanted to see me anyway. see he's goin to france next week :( then its summer....

...

:) he told me i was prettier than megan.

and thats something HUUUGE for me

you should've seen this kid he was so fuckin' unreal

hilary duff (again)

Darcy wrote on Nancy's wall:
onee day we'll get arrested- but dw, i will be sitting next to you saying "damn we fucked up"......
or maybee "i fucking told you so!" :D

london, paris, maybe tokyo?

pink

I was at the Wireless Festival last night!!

i actualyy think im still kinda hung over :/ i dunno, my first festival and my first hang overr :D, whatta awesome weekend. got kindaa addicted to chocolate mouses thoee, maybe thats a dodgeey side effect- theyre a couple of days outta date thoe, and they got a bit of a KICK. day off school, vodka orange, insane music and everyone was proper raavin :). missed josh thoe, and everyone at school - kept calling them, how insane? a day off and i feel like im missing something really close to me.
still- it was IMMENSE ive never evenn been to a club before and yesterday i was at a festival! aaaaahaha, awesomeness! Pink was INCREDIBLE, like actually amazing, i'll do a whole post on her later i just had to get this out :DDDDDDDDDDDD. goin out in a minutee, gotta get in the shower ;)
how do you sleep while the rest of us cry? how do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?

MISSING ANDY

And he would always tell me, "dont start a fight, but if it comes your way, fight for your life." We never go to church but sometimes we pray

Its just the way we were made, just the way we were made.

I'm made in england, i call it my kingdom, but i'm still standing proud, even as every town has fallen down to its knees

hillary duff

Beach was good, wel you knoe, good wen youre me :). Its never really easy, but its okay. Happy days, its nice to be happy, nice to forget like, 'cause some days I forget, sometimes. With Josh I forget, I forget for hours. Mizz aand Freya askedd me on the bus if i love him like.... hell i dont knoe, i dont knoe what love is, but then they started asking questions.... "Do you think about him all the time?" "Does he give you butterflies?" aaand all i could really say was... i love it when hes close, my heart beats, and i cant believe he's here with me, all i'm doing is thanking every star that theres him+me. That seemed to be enough for them :/

Give me an dancefloor, give me a DJ, make me record,

forget what they say, 'cause I need to go,

I need to get away today.

EMINEM-

tom said to me yesterdayy-
"you know youre like the only normal one around here" and i turn around to look at him like "I'm NORMAL?" :O

:D, i swear andy has like every girl in the world after him now, mizz JUST got over him, meganRo, is in love with him i swear, freyaa is just obsessed and the only girl he likes really dontt want anything to do with him... ahh isnt life harsh?

poor dude :/

its kindaa tiring having 75% of the people you see everyday hate you, aand the 50% that dont mind me werent here today, and tommorow i have to go off with all these people who want me to die, great.

josh is lovely thoee, :) considering most of his friends hate me, hes very bravee.
Beach tommroe with 90ish people who pretend i dont exist and want it that way, how spectacular. A whole day of geography and being invisible/dirt, you cant imagine my joy. As you can see im being overly sarcastic, but I really shouldnt complain, everyone has it worse.
I'm heading to my da's after thatt, megans been there all week, jeesh its gunna be weird seeing her again. I dont want to be scared right now, my life is so messed up, and weirdly all im doing is wondering where God is..
Random right? I know, but you hear these stories about people getting hope from God when stuff gets real bad.. I'm not sure whether to expect anythin.. ahh im so selfish.

Just as i wrote that i was listening to eminem-i'm not afraid, and its weird, 'cause the lyrics proper flooded into me, and its like i was thinking, "all i have is the music" and then i realised it was enough. Maybe this is my "help" you know?

Okay this week is just getting weirder and weirder.

Now i just cant keep living this way, so starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage.

I'm standing up, imma face my demons.

I'm manning up, imma hold my ground,

I'm standing up, imma put my heart back together right now.

as he smoked his last cigarette

lost and insecure, you found me, you found me.

hhhhhhmmm.. odd days. Kindaaa feeling, sad. all the time like :(, feeling like this, its baaad. Josh makes me feel better thoee, alot of the time. but i'm worried, worried about fimiyo.

fimiyo is joshs mate, best mate maybee i dont really know. he hates me, like actually wants me to die. he slaps me alot and bashes me about and shit. and its kindaa weird, josh didnt used to do anythin, which was in a way, a better situation, 'cause thenn at least i knew. but now hes like "i'll punch him if you want" i havee a feeling dan (big brother) mightvee sed sumthin to him about it, gay.

and he says stuff to, worse than the otherr guys. hes like "shlaaag, get over here", "shut up you tramp", "oi retard".. wateverr... just gotta do nuuuthin XD, i'll be finee

to ten million fireflies

josh grabbed my waist from behind today and pulled me close, and then he looked like he was gunna say something, you know "josh", but he just smiled at me - and even thoee we're in this MAD (Mayhem. And. Destruction) classroom everythinn just kindaa.. fell into place.

I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes

this is how you remind me

ᵀᴴᴱ ᴼᴿᴵᴳᴵᴻᴬᴸ Daniel

i got sooo much crap today xD

5:29pmMe

tell me

5:31pmᵀᴴᴱ ᴼᴿᴵᴳᴵᴻᴬᴸ Daniel

Well everyone kept going to me "Why did you go to town Darcy"etc

5:32pmMe

and wat you say?

you shouldvee done a "shes a diiirty bitch"

:L

5:32pmᵀᴴᴱ ᴼᴿᴵᴳᴵᴻᴬᴸ Daniel

No i said Cus i wanted to

5:33pmMe

wel tht saved you :L

wat they say?

5:33pmᵀᴴᴱ ᴼᴿᴵᴳᴵᴻᴬᴸ Daniel

and they said "shes still a slag" etc

5:34pmMe

ohh okay :/

wel, thats encouraging

scream "are we having fun yet?"

just stupid

okay, so, i was in town with dan yesterdayy, and it was awesome and everything, we were havinn fun, and THEN we saw like, eibhlin(HATES me) and freya and isabel, lily, bella, will and (JOY) gio. and thenn last night everyone was like hating on dan aboutt it, just cas we're mates.
now see, this has confused me. josh didnt have a problem with it, we're best mates and totally NOT in that place, have been always - yehh his mates might not like me but BIG DEAL, whats the difference between me goin into town with lottie and me goin into town with dan? its not like it was a date, its not like we were flirting. ellie+beckky dont get it either, and i am just SO CONFUSED!
i gotta say thouu, news travells fast around here. practically half the year know now- great. as if i'm not labelled a shlllaaaag enough allready. ugh. UGHH. its so stupid!

someday, somehow, i'm gunna make it alright, just not right now

i'm hunting for a bus fare

was staying at the mullanys last week :) theyre all fairly awesome - they got likee everyone round on saturdayy, got some spazzy pictures of us in our pyjamass LOL :D


then i was talking to dan all night last night :) it was some good stuff, :L town today- got to get the bus in a minutee. tom - (FITT) havvin a chat with him :D, josh is bein non-romantic as usual LOL, meh i still love him to bits :-). nothin else realy on :S, thouu mr.c's got addicted to Nothin On You - B.o.B ft Bruno Mars. meeeh i heard it aaaaaaaaaages ago thoe, such a sweet song :)) jim keeps singing it randomly in class, :L everyones gettin ready to kill him.

anybody else just love it?

beautiful girls, all over the world.

there was snow. white snow

coldplay

i'm thinking about dan now, watching him get pulled out of the car... blood everywhere, stabbed in the back. fuckk i remeber how terrified i was. i couldnt even belive it was happening... dan, my dan. right here in front of me - stabbed, stabbed.

fuckk i'd forgotten. gee thanks

-you know you love me

-i know i do

runnin' in circles, chasing our tails, coming back as we are

chiddy bang

some days you just gotta be free.

i was in hysterics todayy :D, mizz saw this random gingee yr.7, and was screaming "OMG a ginger! i fall in love with gingers, no seriously, can i have a hug?!" and so she goes runnin up to this poor dude who looked just bloody terrified, ahhh it was funny mate. i half expected him to run off screaming ;)

i got a lecturee the otherr day from thomAS, about love. LOL, of all things? he started yelling at me, 'cause apparently you should never date a guy youreee not in love with. personally i find this bloody ridiculous, but youu know, each to thier own.

i thoughtt i might fukking hit gio the other day. dirty lieing dickhead. goes around telling everyonee i got off with him, then dumps bella 'cause he dont want anyy of the piss-take that he does to me (!!!) from his lil mateees. UGH, i told her he'll want her backk like in a day, 'cause he just messes you around like that, but she's strongerr then me, if some boy treats her like shit, she dontt give him a second chance. hell i wish i could be like thatt. arghh, if he wernt my brothers best mate...

oh i once was a kid all i had was a dream.

chipmunk ft.esme denters

shall i tell you whatt happened today? allright, so you know how theres this guy willl? well theres this guy will- thinks
hes like this proper badman, he only lives like a minute from school hell. Anywayyyy, he deciced the otherr day he's gunna rape me (:/ in knowww) and today as i'm walking past he grabbs me and says "lets do our formation, you in the middle, adain on the wall, and i'll be front you like." I just looked at him like WTF, and adain looked bloody scared, dontt think he realised quite watt wills like, ahhh wel. still love him, fukking party animal ledgee :D.

ohh and also like, thiss boy matts been messing around with my darlinn nancyyyyy. and this uglyy tart megan practically threw herselff on him today. nancy can do better but she looked heartbroken like hell. we said go bash her in, but thenn guess itd show she still loves him. dirtyy noooob (him ;]).

catherinee decided she wer gunna thump me in todayy... hell i still dunno why, i'm probably the onlyy person in the year not scared of her. pahh she never does nothin'. shes all air ;)
jim (FITTFITTFITT) gave me a lecture on his "sexting" todayy LOLL, hell its just him texting his girl, she gorgeous.


well theres your first insight into my lifee, dontt make a good impression hey? ahhh wel, please keep reading :D

NEVER KNEW HOW MUCH I MISSED YOU, UNTIL YOU WERE GONE.