MISSING ANDY

And he would always tell me, "dont start a fight, but if it comes your way, fight for your life." We never go to church but sometimes we pray

Its just the way we were made, just the way we were made.

I'm made in england, i call it my kingdom, but i'm still standing proud, even as every town has fallen down to its knees

hillary duff

Beach was good, wel you knoe, good wen youre me :). Its never really easy, but its okay. Happy days, its nice to be happy, nice to forget like, 'cause some days I forget, sometimes. With Josh I forget, I forget for hours. Mizz aand Freya askedd me on the bus if i love him like.... hell i dont knoe, i dont knoe what love is, but then they started asking questions.... "Do you think about him all the time?" "Does he give you butterflies?" aaand all i could really say was... i love it when hes close, my heart beats, and i cant believe he's here with me, all i'm doing is thanking every star that theres him+me. That seemed to be enough for them :/

Give me an dancefloor, give me a DJ, make me record,

forget what they say, 'cause I need to go,

I need to get away today.

EMINEM-

tom said to me yesterdayy-
"you know youre like the only normal one around here" and i turn around to look at him like "I'm NORMAL?" :O

:D, i swear andy has like every girl in the world after him now, mizz JUST got over him, meganRo, is in love with him i swear, freyaa is just obsessed and the only girl he likes really dontt want anything to do with him... ahh isnt life harsh?

poor dude :/

its kindaa tiring having 75% of the people you see everyday hate you, aand the 50% that dont mind me werent here today, and tommorow i have to go off with all these people who want me to die, great.

josh is lovely thoee, :) considering most of his friends hate me, hes very bravee.
Beach tommroe with 90ish people who pretend i dont exist and want it that way, how spectacular. A whole day of geography and being invisible/dirt, you cant imagine my joy. As you can see im being overly sarcastic, but I really shouldnt complain, everyone has it worse.
I'm heading to my da's after thatt, megans been there all week, jeesh its gunna be weird seeing her again. I dont want to be scared right now, my life is so messed up, and weirdly all im doing is wondering where God is..
Random right? I know, but you hear these stories about people getting hope from God when stuff gets real bad.. I'm not sure whether to expect anythin.. ahh im so selfish.

Just as i wrote that i was listening to eminem-i'm not afraid, and its weird, 'cause the lyrics proper flooded into me, and its like i was thinking, "all i have is the music" and then i realised it was enough. Maybe this is my "help" you know?

Okay this week is just getting weirder and weirder.

Now i just cant keep living this way, so starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage.

I'm standing up, imma face my demons.

I'm manning up, imma hold my ground,

I'm standing up, imma put my heart back together right now.